Monica Lewinsky

Monica Lewinsky says she’s ‘reclaiming’ fallout from Bill Clinton scandal on new podcast

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Monica Lewinsky is reclaiming her story.

The “Reclaiming” podcast host, who released the first episode of her new project Tuesday, retold the story of her journey from scrutinized White House intern to Hollywood producer and anti-bullying advocate.

“Coming out of ’98, I lost my anonymity, I lost my future, I lost my sense of self, I think I lost trusting myself in many ways,” Lewinsky said on Tuesday’s “Reclaiming” episode.

“I fell in love with D.C. and the White House and the job and the environment and then, very unfortunately, I fell in love with my boss who was married and also the most powerful man in the world,” she said. “What followed was an inappropriate relationship that lasted for two years.”

Two other “Reclaiming” episodes are now available: one with actress Olivia Munn, and another bonus episode with Lewinsky’s best friend, actor and “Traitors” host Alan Cumming.

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Monica Lewinsky moves forward with her new podcast "Reclaiming."

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Lewinsky, 51, said that once you pass 40, you start to “recontextualize your younger years.”

“What I thought was happening in those two years in D.C. and what I thought this relationship was, I’ve come to understand it in different ways,” Lewinsky continued, adding that “I think that it was something where there were real emotions involved, but I think I believed that there was a future. I think I believed that I mattered a lot more than I did.”

Monica Lewinsky resurfaced in 2015 viral Ted Talk video

After leaving public life altogether for nearly two decades, Lewinsky resurfaced for the first time in a now-viral Ted Talk in March 2015, where she discussed the 1998 Clinton scandal and her efforts to end public shaming and online bullying.

During the scandal and subsequent presidential impeachment hearings, Lewinsky was subjected to harsh and unprecedented media attention after former President Bill Clinton admitted to having an affair with her while she served as a White House intern in the 1990’s. She wrote in a Vanity Fair piece in 2018 that the road that led to the relationship “was littered with inappropriate abuse of authority, station, and privilege.”

The 1998 incident has been reframed by some after the #MeToo era delved into the power differential between Clinton, the then-president, and then-22-year-old Lewinsky.

In recent years, she served as a co-executive producer of “15 Minutes of Shame,” which shines a light on public shaming, and as an executive producer of “Impeachment: American Crime Story,” a 10-episode series executive produced by Ryan Murphy that retold the story of the Clinton scandal through the lens and lives of women.

Last year, Lewinsky opened up about surviving shame in an interview with USA TODAY.

“The thing I tell myself now … once you survive once, it’s in there. No matter how terrible it feels, somewhere in there is you got through it once, you know the cycle. It’s as bad as it seems, it will get better,” she said.

Lewinsky added: “It will change, you don’t know how soon … you can’t see it right now, but you will get through this. This may feel emotionally like the worst moment and excruciating shame and pain, and you just want to curl into a ball and disappear, but it will change, and you will have joy again and you will feel yourself again.

“There’s always going to be that piece of you.”

Michelle Obama inspired Monica Lewinsky’s new podcast

In a recent Rolling Stone interview published on Valentine’s Day, Lewinsky revealed that former first lady Michelle Obama helped inspire her podcast.

“The idea of reclaiming was something I had put in my Notes app not long after Michelle Obama had written ‘Becoming’ and had kind of started that trend of ‘Oh, everybody has a book with one word and an -ing’ and I’m like, ‘Mine will be ‘Reclaiming.’ Each chapter could be different aspects of myself I’ve reclaimed,'” she told Rolling Stone.

Monica Lewinsky is "reclaiming" her narrative on a new podcast of the same name.

“When I started to revisit it, it became more interesting as an idea to explore with other people, and other people’s stories, rather than it just being about me. I think down the line, there’ll be things that I reclaim on the podcast and process personally. So, that’s the idea there. I’m terrified,” she added.

Contributing: Laura Trujillo

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